So I’ve been gone for a while. Even my Instagram has been pretty inactive (relatively speaking). And I’ve been thinking about why, and what I should say to you all.
Chances are, not many people will read this, (that’s what happens when you disappear for a month apparently), which is fine. But for those who care, or who are going through something similar, here’s what’s going on.
I’m no longer interested in anything. I don’t know why. At first I thought it was because I finally started at my full-time job. I love my work, but it’s tiring. But now I’m used to it and I don’t know why I just don’t care about anything.
The only thing I can think of is that I’m not writing like I should. This happened to me a few years ago, in 2017, when I didn’t write for a year. I couldn’t enjoy any book, didn’t do photography, and generally didn’t do anything. When I’m creatively blocked, it’s hard for me to do anything.
And it especially sucks because it’s very hard for me to find motivation to write. I have good ideas, and plans, but no motivation.
The good part is that I was lucky enough, thanks to my job, to be able to afford a new computer of my own. This might seem irrelevant, but now I have a new energy to write posts like this, and to write without lagging on a desktop. I’m so, so excited to use this thing.
Is my theory about writing right? IDK. But now I have the motivation to find out, and I intend to talk about books and interact with you all like I love to do.
How have you all been? Anything exciting happened to you recently?